emofreak

2007-02-25T10:24:00.000-08:00

the lion sleeps tonight

My fav song now

2006-12-21T03:40:00.000-08:00

Dewa - Pupus

well this is wat i experience...

2006-12-18T15:21:00.000-08:00

marah marah sayang

old skool classic...

ah bukak la pintu tuh...

2006-12-15T15:37:00.000-08:00

love actually

it just make u go Awww.....

2006-12-14T03:27:00.000-08:00

ungu~seperti yang dulu

How i wish...

2006-12-14T03:18:00.000-08:00

ungu-tercipta untukku

-_-

2006-11-22T09:32:00.000-08:00

vindicated

The title tells it all...

Ps: It's freaking time to more on...

2006-11-21T16:27:00.000-08:00

Peterpan-Di Belakangku

UNderstand the lyrics...

2006-11-11T21:02:00.000-08:00

May - Sendiri (Live & Unplugged)

well it reflects how i feel now.....

*so jiwangz....

2006-11-11T20:56:00.000-08:00

rock sejati

Feel like rocking today.....
here's a feel...

2006-11-06T15:36:00.000-08:00

kenapa

Kenapa Harusku Bercinta, kenapaku percaya, KENAPA HARUSKU DIPERBODOHKAN!!!

2006-10-29T15:06:00.000-08:00

pencinta wanita - irwanshah

am I one?

2006-10-29T05:09:00.000-08:00

The Notebook - Bryan Adams - 'Heaven'

2006-10-23T05:41:00.000-07:00

daging, hati. limpa

tu all Eid Mubarak....

2006-10-23T05:26:00.000-07:00

You And Me - LIFEHOUSE

the song tt relates me now...

POEM....

2006-05-10T09:36:00.000-07:00

Hari ini hari Rabu,

Ramai Orang Makan Tebu,

Orang Giler Bukak Kungfu,

Seluar Koyak Nampak "Ahem"....

POEM TOLD BY A FREN OF MINE... TENGKU KHAIRUL NIZAM.....

ps: Beyond this laughter are thousands of uncertainties....

WAT....

2006-05-02T09:43:00.000-07:00

FOOT PATROL AGAIN?????

U THINK WAT AM A FOOT SOLDIER KER????

*!@&*^(@$#)!@)&

PS: I'll take this as a reservist training ah....

vindicated

2006-04-08T06:19:00.000-07:00

things don't go as we expected....

thats life...

how i wish tt it just go in place...

well HE decides while we plan...

PS: Insya Allah One day everything will go well....

Ibnu Solihin

2006-04-02T05:39:00.000-07:00

It's Best tt We just remain as frens!!!

Sprain Ankle

2006-03-27T15:24:00.000-08:00

well...

thanks to a fren of mine tt i got 2 days MC.... muakakakkakaka

soccer on sunday was great...

eventually want the guys to come early by telling them 1/2hr earlier than the expected time...

to my suprise some came at 3.30 pm the time i told them.... hahahhahahha

ok la tuh.. at least i know they are eager to play...

after soccer with a swollen leg masih still go for "tulang" at beach rd... then off to the foot massage at ginza to have the lert leg fixed....

when the fella was massaging i feel like i wanna pull my left leg away and kick him with the right leg...

and there was somebody there to luagh for it la...

but luckily i didn't kick the masager as my leg got better now la...

if not i'll be limping here and there la...

hahahaha

plans to go to jakarta seems very dim ah... financial says tt maybe not affordable for the time being... So Rad am sorry la can't join u this time for the graduation.... maybe next yr aite..

then the guys brought up Hatyai.... the first thing tt came to my mind was the Pulut Durian ah....

hahahaha...

well tt have to wait till one of my client make payment la....

if he does tt trip is a go la...

ok la ciaos chins chiows for now....

PS: hmmmmmm.... dunno la wat come over me.....

Muakakkakaka

2006-03-21T08:11:00.000-08:00

Well here i am back again for dunno how many months of MIAing.......

Well i just got back from my bangkok trip, it was splendid thou with Some *toot* glitches here and there....

Life.... hmmm... life....

It have been with lotsa uncertainty *is tt how u spell tt?*

wat ever it is been busy with work.,... and Photography not to mention...

I want a new skin for my blog anyone wanna volunteer to do it for me?

hahhahahaha...

I had an assignmentlast month... Well practically my emo side just overcome me at tt point of time as i was about to snap the bride's close-up shot then i realise tt she some how or rather look like my ex......

My heart feels like it just went from my chest to my legs..... i had to pull myself together at tt point just not to ruin the pic.. *a sad emo cameraman gives a sad emo pics* so i just took a deep breath and continue to be shutter trigger happy....

when i got home i was telling myself wat if without knowing the bride for my assignment is my ex? HOW WUD I REACT? Well certainly the feeling hasn't died off totally...

But if it were to happen i SERIOUSLY do not know how to react...

But chances are a million to one la... if she do it at her home i shud know unless she moves but tt i also shud know cause i still have some one to tell me... but if she were to make it at somewhere elese like say a community center or a restaurant?

Well God knows how i'll react... But still i have to keep the professionalism in me... My motto.. "ur precious moments are my concern" hhmmmmmmm

ok la be back dunno when i'll be back... hope it'll be soon ya...

ciao chins chow

Salamz..

LALA LAND...

2005-07-13T23:20:00.000-07:00

well guys am back...

back from my hols...

so plan to sarawak was a failure but wasn't a total one....
hehehehe

When to Hatyai with Joe and Tengku Hairul Nizam....

hahhaa.... all guys but no hanky panky ah...

just pure shopping, shopping and more shopping....

Well my money when like a water pipe tt leaks none stop....

after the 1st day am left with 1/7 of my money ah...
had to withdraw from the atm there....

Endless tuk tuk ride and endless bums on the head each time i board it... *ouch*

and guess wat, i got my first pay from freelancing wedding photographer.... Another achievement for me tt i wanted for so long....
but thanks to Ed coz he help me with the editing coz i was like freaking busy...

thanks to him and i still owe u a sheesha session bro....

well someones back... hehehhehe

works back to normality, no teadious or wet undies days now but come next month is another diff story as there will be *live Pipe cutting* (my virgin experience of a life treatening situation) hehehhehe...

won't go into detail for tt....

got a call from the job agency again saying tt arab side ask me to qoute my salary this time... well it's kinda late i think....

Well the opportunity comes and it goes... Insya Allah I will have another chance once everything settle down...

Am definitely a happy man now... hehehhehe * ada ah*

tt's for now folks be back dunno when ah..

Ps: July 15 is coming....

Back from Hiatus....

2005-06-17T22:30:00.000-07:00

hehehe....

Well am back i think...

but going off again soon to serve my beloved nation for the rest of u people can sleep well at night knowing tt am there....

offf for reservist for 11 straight days.... hehhehehe

ok la

new job has been gud...

exams coming up soon....

then going off to sarawak...

but bad news just came in my travel buddy had his leave rejected for the period... now have to look for replacement....

shit can happen anytime anywhere...

well here's one example for sure...

well gotta go now....

*Ps: Baby wish u come back soon....

Apologies

2005-05-18T22:30:00.000-07:00

I ever wonder if all my mistake towards u,
have already been forgiven...

if not, i wud like to take this oppurtunity..

to say sorry for the things i've done...
intentionally or not...

I know tt I've hurt u much more..
then the finger on my hands and legs can count...

I know tt i've been such a "jerk"..
and I'm sorry...

I also know tt there is no way to turn back time...
to amend for the things i've done...
to stay loving towards you...

I regret for the things and decision made...
But i think it's for our own good...

Hope u move on well...
for me I've tried...
but just to no avail....

each time i tried...
I think of you..
In my dreams...
Doing my daily routine...
even on the road can bring back memories...

I hope it'll go away...
but i dun think so it will...
to put the pass behind me isn't easy....
I may look happy and jovial outside...
BUT deep in me is crying out loud...

Tears tt can't be seen and worst of all the GUILT...

Once again I ask for forgiveness....

I hope Allah will always be with u..

Ps: Tothose whom i offended with or without knowing... Am sorry.... to the one person whom i hurt alot... Please forgive me... even it's been nearly 2 yrs.. the guilt is still deep in me....

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA........

2005-05-14T15:00:00.000-07:00

Work have been great so far....

relaxs and cool... lotsa new things for me to learn.... from the schematic down to the network...

Hands on and observing is one main priority there as safety is most important ah....

got one new guy who is formally from city gas and was giving SRS a yr back and now he joined power gas.... he used to be a supervisor in city gas.... but now a tech C grade technician at the age of 45 i think... same as me la....

totall there are 3 new guys... am the latest addition and the there's another mala guy who happens to be my sec schmate... hehehhe..

Well practically this 45 yr old guy still have the mentality of being the supervisor.... so he can't take any command from the older staff.... usually at the end of the day our cloths will be dirty and smelly where his shirt and pants is still nice and clean.... can u imagine tt... even the senior tech shirt there some stains....

haizzzz......

other than tt all is ok la... need to learn their politics there first....

I miss my old job actually.... but with better prospect and pay here... well wat the heck.... ok mah.....

hahahhaha....

ok la here it for now....

Well u've been back for nearly a yr...
when u are there, we usually communicate....

but when u are back here...
our communication is not as much when u r there...

Ps: So close yet so far....

GAS GAS GAS

2005-05-05T03:00:00.000-07:00

It's been awhile ah.....

hehehhehe...
my blardy comp decided to give up on me.... Worst part is tt my back up external HDD also decided died at the same time.... Sheesh... (harapkan pagar, pagar makan padi..)

Well so much have happen la....

Recollecting memories, weddings, resigning, bumping ard..... and many more ah...

Well I saw "her" for the first time after tt faithful night....

I was at a traffic light junction at bouna vista waiting for the green light when i saw her opposite me waiting to cross over.....

I was really at the wrong place, at the wrong time and worst of all the WRONG MUSIC was playing *It was a dikir song called "Merah Inai"* Sheesh....

Wat cud have gone more wrong then tt.....

the green lights shows.... i move and she cross... I waive and i think she doesn't see me....

*My Heart sunk to the center of the earth i think at tt point of moment*

There was no change in her...

Well I hope everything is going fine for her.... Insya Allah..

Well I had my Exit Interview with HR of Em services... Oh boy.... Didn't i say I come with a bang and my exit is a bigger one......

Seriously it was....

the whole interview took nearly an Hour... hahahha *won't touch on tt thou*

Well after frantically searching for my beloved D70 at sim lim i decided to get it fromAMK afterall... with freebies and a good service.... hahahahah

enjoying it now la.... snap, snap, snap.....

last sun got 4 wedding to attend and boy my stomach was bloated and with a big hole in my wallet.....
hehehehhehe

Next mon starting my new job... dunno how it wud be like....

First need to get a hair cut and photo taken ah.... *for my pass... Dun wanna make it like my IC pic...*

cancelled trip either to bintan and KL... so sad....

2 weeks of leave was spend doing my deliveries... was ok la only with few glitches which made my blood boil...

Well Am still hoping for tt someone to open up for me...

sheesshhhh....

Ps: I tried to let go but it keeps coming back.....
Wonder if i will find the rite one.....

a tot tt came to my mind without knowing....

2005-04-15T00:46:00.000-07:00

sometimes i feel tears puddling in my eyes.....

the feeling i had is like a sharp knife piercing thru my heart....

And Only God knows how much you mean to me!...

Ps: talking to you on msn does make my day......

Weeeeeeeeee............

2005-04-14T22:22:00.000-07:00

Hmmmmmmm......

My nick was like It's gonna be a good week on monday.......

but..... but.......

haizzzz....

things can turn the other way ah....

First i was feel with guilt.... (shall not touch on tt...)

then work seems like never ending.....

case after case.....

but the best things is i recieve a letter from my current company for an "exit interview"......

wonder wat they wanna talk abt.....
hahahhhahaha

well.....

things not all bad ah....

learn some new things too....

heard a phrase ah, tt i like.....

"u r like a wrap present.....

semua tertutup

even ur hair i've not seen before and etc...

lepas nikah then boleh unwrap.."

No sexual tots here....

but come to think of it if everyone has this tots there wudn't be any molest or rape cases ya.....

wudn't tt be good.....

hehehhe

on another note.....

I wonder when i can say tt to a special person?.....

Well I hope to live to tt moment and "lafazkan tt phrase".......

hehehe......

Counting my days now.....

hahaha.... 6 working days from now.......

Ps: am still waiting keeping my hopes high.... people ask me to move on but i believe tt thing will just turn ard..... the agony is there... but it might be worth it....

It's Been Awhle

2005-04-06T14:43:00.000-07:00

It's been sometime tt i penn down my "happeningz".... hehehehhee.....

Well most happenings Was last week ah.....

0800 hrs monday morning......

I marched into my manager's opis for a meeting tt i shud have like nearly 3 yrs back to talk to him abt prospect and my pay.......

I finally got it and The First Damn Blardy question tt i asked him was "wats my prospect in the company???" His facial expression change immediately from to half doze to kinda shock situation.... And still he got a cheek to ask "WAT KIND OF PROSPECT ARE YOU TALKING ABT?" He thinks wat am there to take over his seat meh????? DUH~!!!!!!
then he told me tt in the company the promotion stage is very slow like 5-6 yrs then they wud "CONSIDER"..... And if not happy with the company way of promotion level he asked me to go to complain to the union and see wat they can DO!!!! (wtf*)

OK enuf of tt....

Next my pay..... hahahahha

He didn't even KNOW tt i was UNDERPAID for this employment..... (wtf* again*) i told him tt my basic was $20 short from the previous employment before my NS......
And he told me tt why i didn't come to him like after i join the company?????

And i told him tt HR told me tt the reason for the pay tt i got was becoz i join the company when the market is bad.... So when i asked them (HR) "so how wud my pay be revise when the market pick up?" Their answer was "it depends on ur manager recommendation" ok fine enuff for me at tt time....

So how cud i possiblely go to him after i join the company and tell him tt am underpaid when the market is bad? DUH~~~!!!!! MAJOR DUH~~!!!!! (*it seems tt the HR and MY MANAGER does not communicate properly or none at all)

So he was kinda convincing to me but HE ISN'T CONVINCING ENUFF......

SO on friday....... hahahahhahaha

I tender my RESIGNATION....... Whoaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.......

A first step to my next step of life......

I was accepted to join POwer Gas as a technician in SENOKO power plant....

Pay and insentive much more better then wat am recieving in the current company.....

Right now a big hooo haaaa going on in the company as not only me who tenders... and tech also did send in his letter already.... muakakakakakakakka padan muka korang .....

Dun value ur workers so ur workers won't value u..... (POa Kai * means serve u right in hokkien...)

From Super 4 to my Super Wave.....

heheheheh... downgraded my bike coz of my "impian" to get a car.....

But the dream will remain a dream for now as the interest rate went up and am changing job...

so need to stabilise my financial once more.......

Dun worry the red mica vios will be mine someday (wonder when will tt be)... hehehehhhe

My toshiba NTBK is on the verge of dying......

I think i need to get a new pc or ntbk lor... but am going to reformat my ntbk first la.....

Am at the library now freaking cold la..... hahahhahaha

shud be working but in so called *ORD* mood already.....

hahaha
k la much of the blabbering here....

Ps: It's not how u feel for her, but how she feels towards u.... but seriously i can't get her out of my mind....... sheeessshhhhh.... but am not giving up yet... I think?

hmmm...

2005-03-29T00:23:00.000-08:00

It's not how u feel abt her

but

How she feels abt u.....

Ps: These Words are in my mind..... to think of it for me being my self fish self.... for wanting so much for some one to be with me and not even think abt her feelings.....

Well they always say if u love someone u got to let her go......

Well

2005-03-23T20:25:00.000-08:00

It's been awhile.... So much have happen.... So many things on my mind.... to proceed or not is another..... to move on or not (well have yet to decide).....

I like this song..... (Under The Bridge Downtown by RHCP)
It does bring back old memories and does reflect on my life....

Ps: To those who have give their piece of mind to me.... Am gratefull and thankfull.... No words can thank u enuff....

QUOTE

Jikaku pergi dahulu,

Fahamilah bahawa Allah lebih menyayangi ku dari mu.....

WTF......

2005-03-11T11:35:00.000-08:00

THE CONTENTS BELOW CONTAINS SOME UNPLEASENT WORDS OR VOCABS....
SO READERS BELOW THE AGE OF 18 PLEASE REFRAIN FROM READING IT.....

Well....

it happen last tues when i was on duty.....

Got a call at boon lay blk 200.....

Dah la only one lift is working....''

and the freaking thing is tt it has to breakdown during my duty..... Really WTF la.....

had to climb 16 storeys up the stairs with my tool behind my back which is around 15kg.....

soaked in my own sweat.... i try to trouble shoot the freaking problem ah.....

While i was trouble shooting 1 fat cina uncle took the lift from like the 6 floor.... but the lift was going up la and it stopped every floor till he reached the 15 storey ah.... (tt's where i was... waiting to repair the lift).....

He bang and he bang the freaking lift.....

here i am trying to rectify a freaking mind boggling problem and there he is creating a new one...

Fu*king uncivilize sia......

still he got a cheek to complain tt the lift is no gud.....

well he got a piece of me, i was going like " Orang macam lu ah kasi itu lift rosak" his face changed after i said tt....

i had to let the lift go down ah coz he refuse to take the stairs....

so the banging start again...

i was praying for the rope to snap sia.... so his balls will go up to his troat when he experience tt.....

when all was over.. the lift is in order, pack my stuff and i took the lift down from the top floor which is the 15 storey....

it stop at the 13 floor where a botak father and his 3 botak kids entered the lift....

the kids were fooling ard even before they entered the lift.....

and they are still fooling ard in the lift...
the lift stop at the 10 floor where an elderly couple enter....

it stop again at the 9 floor and another 2 person enter....

the lift was pack like sardines seh....
then one of the botak kid who is standing infront of me... and he was say something in chinese which go like this "Da fei chu" while pointing his finger at me.... not only once but twice......

What he said was BIG FAT PIG...... what the FUCK......
i look to the dad and he just stared back and me..... Nabue ah......'

I look at the kid again and he said the same verse again.......

What the fuck la...... damn pissed off when i heard giggling tt came from the gal near the door....

I wish i cud JOTOS SERET the kids head at the point of time........

And shoot some education into the dad's head with a giagantic CANON.......

he didn't apologise on behalf of his kid.....

U think wat.... I may look malay ok.... yes i am malay but I got Chinese blood also la....

And dun't think tt malay can't understand chinese, hokkien or even cantonese k....

cos some of us speak better then all of u do.....

damn fu*k Shit.....

dun let me see them again ah

i will blast them with my chinese then......

Ps: feels gd expressing myself here..... And to the botak father, 3 botak kids and the fat uncle.....
I u dun like the lift there's always the stairs for u all to use... and it won't breakdown.....

Mencari Kepastian

2005-03-05T01:01:00.000-08:00

Well....

Like my life is unsure of certain things or shud i say most things......

I've been waiting....

Waiting for...

Wat i need is Kepastian tt's all...

Is it worth waiting for...

I know it sound ridiculous ah....

but i've been waiting for sometime....

just tell me to wait i will definitely wait.....

Insya Allah i will do just tt.....

Willing to adapt to changes if I have to....

Just dun leave me Hanging....

Ps: Shud i say.... Pupus from dewa does have a link to this blog.. the lyric i mean...... Just the three words.... If u guys know wat is it do tag ya.....

Ps ps:.... feeling happy but sad.....

It's 5 in the Morning

2005-02-22T17:17:00.000-08:00

Well... Beens awhile ya......

dun wanna blog actually but seriously i can't sleep.........

It's like 5 in the morning and am in the office.....

Cold, block nosed, emotional and worst of all freaking tired.........

listening to my iPOD now (relaku pujuk by spider)

when am down there no one to pick me up,
happiness is there for awhile, so i shud treassure it while i can (WHICH I DIDN'T OF COZ)
Really feel tt am being ungratefull.....

Well tt explains the feeling am having now.....

Tumble on something while i surf friendster....
make me feel Sooooooo..... I can't really put it in words la......
Sometime I just feel tt i really hate myself.....
*my cheering up song is on now (pemuja rahsia by SO7)*
wish tt i was not IN SG now......
Wish tt i had lose my memories.....
but the fact is tt i had to face it no matter how i hate to do tt....
I brought it to myself...
I must move on....
I know tt i've created so much sins tt i might not have time to repent even if start 25 yrs back...
Am i just a bad person....
Well there's always a saying "U R the author of ur own life"
Am really sorry for the things tt i've done to hurt u intentionally or not....

I know people are reading this with or without my knowing....
I just have to let it out ah.....
Feeling kinda emo now actually...
It's been awhile tt i do some self reflect on myself....

but watever it is... life has to go on....
this is wat i choose (might be a big mistake)
but i have to face it and make changes to it....
can i just say tt life is an experiment or a gamble....
haizzzzz.....

last week was great ah actually....
slacked the whole week at work...
nothing much to do ah....

Well sunday match against another team was a fruitfull one as we won 4-2....
And i didn't score ah....
hehehhehehehe
but had a great run....
sweat it out on the hazy day......
Then a major migrane ah.....
hahahhaha.....

This week will be shit ah.....
HDB doing the freaking remote test again......
with lotsa lift down early in the morning and i had to be like a "beruk" to reset the system....
block after block tt i had to climb up just to press a button.....
but the worst case senario is when they just won't reset back to normality...
haizzz...

this is life.....

Ps: Am still waiting for her or shud i say waiting to get my self esteem back to pop the question to her..... Dang...... Binggit kan.........

whoa.....

2005-02-17T23:47:00.000-08:00

hahha nothing to write ah...

life priddy simple....

kinda over the moon ah....

hehehheehehe

but ain't sure if it'll last and i hope it does....

nothing special going on but just moi feelings... dun get me wrong...

Blakang rumah aku now ada cina mati....

maybe tonight was the last night....coz they have the band ard and making a record out of the place...
as i walk pass the wake... the band was playing ah...
wondering why there is such ritual for them ah....
and when they play the music or the ricital of the prayers the bidy in the coffin wud dance away....
hahahha
how my imaginations run wild.....
well enuff la ya
so i think this shud be it la for now...

Ps: got lots to write but dunno where to start..... Love wat am feeling now... Need my Self Esteem backkkkkkkk.................

hmmm...

2005-02-11T03:00:00.000-08:00

It's like 0250 hrs....

and i can't sleep......

Well my work marathon is going good so far.....

with no calls on the first day (tues), 3 calls on the 2nd one and 1 call on the 3rd day.....

hope it will keep up tt way tomorrow ah, eh i mean later ah........

well am working till sat 0830.....

which makes 96 hrs on stand by ah...
no going out to have fun......

save my money ya....
hahahahaha

well played soccer just now....

had lotsa fun ah....
laughters too...

haven't had tt for sometime....

laughter on the jokes and clumsiness of me and the rest of the fellas la....

well some of them going to Ledang tomorrow, i mean later....

Have fun and be safe ya......
I wish i cud go...

but nvrmn am looking forward to July for the RainForest Music Festival in Sarawak...
and KL trip next month... (Malaysia Mega Sale)

hehehhehe

hope tt happens...
it's been awhile tt i go on a trip....

the last time was to terenganu....

ok lets not touch on tt.....

k la peeps wanna try to shut eye first.....

Ps: Love life no progress..... Thinking of doing Diploma in Photography ah..... wat dya think????
Drop me some comments ah..... haizzzzzz...... love life, love life, love life...........

2005-02-07T21:09:00.000-08:00

it's my longest week of the year.....

words of tots

2005-02-07T07:16:00.000-08:00

patience will reap it's rewards

patience is virtue....

time waits for no man

only fools rush in...

Ps: Now in Dilemma... this words have an impact on my mind... to pursue or not to pursue...... Well some people knows what i'm talking abt and as for the rest u can Go Figure......

Well well.....

2005-02-02T18:05:00.000-08:00

if u wanna know the words on my pic below here it is.....

LIFE IS DULL WITHOUT MUSIC

AIN'T COMPLETE W/O A PARTNER....

A PERFECTIONIST, WHO IS NEVER PERFECT AS HE IN NOT SATISFIED WITH HIMSELF ALL THE TIME

A LOAN TO EARTH BY ALLAH

THIS IS ME....
ACCEPT ME FOR WAT I AM AND FOR WAT I WILL BE...

2005-01-29T22:00:00.000-08:00

Well i do have time to reflect on myself on the things tt i want in life... But as the saying always say.... "kita merancang Allah yg menentukan" In translation "We can make all the plans But Allah is the one who decides..."

Damn the Freaking mosquitoes....

2005-01-28T04:53:00.000-08:00

It's like 4.30 a in the morning now.....

Am awake why?
coz of the damn freaking mosquitoes tt have been feasting on my blood....

k enuff of tt...

beens awhile since my last entry ah....

Last weekend was great ah but only kinda rushing....

I have to thanks all tt to the sheeps and goats shipment from Australia fot the korban ah.....

rented a car for the weekend....

ok of friday was rather slow coz initially was to go to the mosque to help out but did not so in the end in the evening after sending my sis to her in-laws i see myself with my parents to my aunt's place at Toa Payoh.....

BOY....... Memories came back when i was at her place la...... Worst Still THANKS ALOT TO KAK AISYAH WITH HER VERY ABSENT MINDED AND SUPER DUPER LASER MOUTH when she had to ask if i still go out with my ex... TT REALLY CHANGES EVERYTHING....

My face change immediately from cheerful to dunno wat la...... ((&(#&$(&(^#@&a#&(^$

Food was great there.... then may our way to my grandaunt's place next... where we met my dearest uncle and aunty (ju and nora)......

hhahahahha... Binawe... hold my secret rite nak bilang my mom ah.... but i hold more secret ah.....
hahahhahahhaha... k tt one i shall not touch.......

reached there.... makan again..... ahakz......

then the old follks still at the dining room where they have the tv to catch siti in action la, and the young ones was at the living room watching idol.... the 3 of us was slacking till i doze off can see tt nora is like a snake on ju's lap....

hahahha supose to meet up with the guys after tt but did not la..... kuakuakua.... dah penats gilers.......

k sunday was damn freaking rushing........ morning when out with the kids to have breakfast at west coast then met zack and jo to go to queensway to get zack's soccer boots for the match later ...
hahha
got myself a total 90 t-shirt ah.. nice asit is in red la......

then off to AMK ITE for the game.... we lost the game ah 4-1 and still the best part was I SCORED the only goal ah.....
hahahha
tt was a lucky one boy......

left b4 the game ends as i need to rush to the mosque with my mom, got back home mom's face was like not so the happy la.. Dia dah siap pun..... Apa lagi aku mandi cowboy ah..... hahhaha

reached the mosque... the korban started already.... the kadang filled with guys so i dun think there is space for me ah.....

so tak pe take an easier roll bagi daging ah......
hehhehehehe best....

we were there till 11 ah but reached home ard midnight coz we send some daging to my aunt and my mom's fren.....

the next day was tottaly shag ah....

and this week nothing but work ah.....
freaking fiddiging coz they are do the remote test for the ARD (Automatic Rescue Device) Mesti ada yg fail, ada yg hang.....

Pagi2 dah jadi beruk kena panjat sana panjat sini.....
haizzzzzz..... nasib...

k la... i wanna hunt the mosquito....

Ps: How to ask a gal ah to be ur special one... without losing the frenship is things dun work out.... :s

To go or not to go......

2005-01-19T22:31:00.000-08:00

Lots going thru in my scull now.....

On Monday I recieved a call from someone tt i dun expect to recieve anyone......
It was Jenny... The person from job agency.......

I tot it was another offer in SG but indeed she told me tt i've been accepted to go to Mecca for the job which i had applied last yr (tt was in freaking april ah... Freaking long rite?)

So made a appointment to go down to view the contract ah......
After I hang up the phone i was delighted ah to have been offer a position over there....
So as promise i went down to the office after work....
the papers were all ready.... a rough copy tt is.....

In it writes.... all the term from accommadation to transport.....
Then comes the salary part.....
The Figure was ok BUT THE CURRENCY WAS LIKE REALLY UNAPPEALLING AH.....
It was In SAR so they say in it's term is SAUDI RIYAL..... As the manager wats the convertion like and he told me tt 100 Riyal is equal to 33 SGD.... after doing the calculation there and then i found out tt wat i'm earning here is more then wat they offer....

Wat the heck....
During the interview last yr it was said tt i was gonna be paid in USD, but why now SAR?
Weird but the truth is tt, tt's all they can pay me.....

abt me going there is not a problem even when i know going there my status will be the same as the Bangla's in SG..... Practically everything is fine..... but only the pay ah.......

After much asking ard from ppl i know to the ppl who i seldom talk too... the majority said tt i shud forgo the offer...

Seriously i've been looking up for this offer for damn freaking long.....
but after wat people tell me abt the security and stuff over there really make me think back alot and giving me a major headache ah....
cudn't sleep well since monday..... the decision i make is for my future.... and big leap to my next step of my life....

Well I hope they can increase the pay and BBDC can give me an answer soon( I also apply to become an instructor la)

How I wish i dun have to think so much and just say yes....

Ps: I realy wanna go but dunno wats holding me back... not only the pay but something else which i myself ain't sure abt... God Please show me the right of way.....

It's Sunday And I'm At WORK!!!!!!!!

2005-01-16T13:50:00.000-08:00

Well guys...

It's Sunday and sees me at this damn blardy cold office (which runs on a single unit Air-con but Cold like a freezer *Purrrrr*)

Had great fun last 2 nites......

Watched aviator on friday midnight show..... Well Like Howard Huge who is a perfectionist who is never satisfied.... Well thats wat life is.....

Yesterday went down to cineleisure where they have this fund raising for tsunami victims... Nice Giggs.. most of the band were awesome..... Well the 7 of us had great fun... nad, andz, ju, nora, zack, nana and me.... Met my army mate there too....

HEHEHEHEHE... then off to Suntec for some shopping.... groceries and some clothing la... i only bought 3 pairs of toe socks lawhich is at 9.90.... hehehhehe

farah and rudy join us there where andz and nad was still at the gigg when we left.....

When down to railway to have dinner ah..... be4 tt i had my gastric run at suntec where i got a good scolding from my aunty ah.... hahahhaha.. she was going like "Dekni eh selalu cam gini tau, dah tau ada problem ngan perut dia bukan nak makan.... anda yada yada yada...." ahakz seriously tears was running down my checck at the point of time, the needle sharp pain felt at my abdoment was so great but had to put a brave front ah dun wanna add the misery to my ears plak.....

at railway i had mee siam, they order garoupa and crab claws.... had a shave in tt tooo.....
Worst part when we are talking and i choke on a fish bone...... my face turned red as i started to cough furiously.... the guys face was horrified as my uncle's showed the worst one.... manage to get the bone out ah...... then ju said "nasib baik ko takde apa2 kalau tidak aku tak tau apa nak jawab ngan mak ko....." hahahhahahaha

well then had a smooth sailing eating after tt... to think of having a gastric then choking on a fish bone all in one day was a terrible experience...... had sheesha too after tt.... POWER AH.....

went back at ard 12 plus, mey Jo under his block to pass the soccer tixs for today..... Arggghhhhhh.....
Talking abt soccer match is really annoying when they kept asking me purposely or accidentally wat time i'm going and i have to repeat myself to them tt i'm working ah.......

haizzzzz.......

here's my blog for today...

Ps: Dunno how to say what i feel la now.... damn freaking EMO now.......

2005-01-15T22:12:00.000-08:00

Well thinking far ahead,,,

Nikah Depan mimbar?

2005-01-14T01:32:00.000-08:00

When i was riding back home just now......

Terbayang lah diri aku bila aku nak nikah i want to do it pat Masjid depan Mimbar.....

Was imagining tat the tok kadi was infront of me holding my hand as he recite the akad nikah.....

the light above was really in the mood and guys were at one side while the ladies at another with my bride.... (can't really see who it was....)

the atmosphere was wonderfull....

There I was in a mosque, at the begining stage of me building another *mosque*......

so i felt so delighted tt i forgot tt i was riding.....

but fortunately nothing happen la.....

To think back to have my solemnisation at the mosque is not a bad isea instead of the guy's going over to the gals side or at the makahmah......

i bet i will be the highlight of the day... Al maklum lah kata raja sehari........

I will bring this matter up to my mom when i've found a gal la....

Ps: Seriously I was in another world for a time being when i was riding just now...... Well dunno who is meant for me... Am i meant to get married in this life?

My horoscope

2005-01-10T20:30:00.000-08:00

CANCER MAN

The most sensitive man and the weakest emotional type in all Zodiac. Most
Artists are Cancer. Cancer is controlled by the "Moon" and the moon change
it's shape daily, so Cancer man's emotional and moods change all the time
too. You will confuse with him and yet it is his constantly changes that
"Charm" you. He never go to get what he wants directly, but he will wait for
a chance and opportunity to do so. Once he gets what he wants, he will not
loose it, except if he get tired of it by himself.

The most sensitive man who can not stand rejection. He cares what other
people feel or think of him. He hates loosing face and he tends to over
protected himself, so sometimes people might think he is a cold person.

Gifted, creative, imaginative, is Cancer. A mystery and complexity play a
major role in a life of a Cancer man. He could be very funny, very quiet,
suddenly very sad. Living with him could be very unexpected, for you will
not know what is his next mood. If you like excitement and surprise, you
have the right guy and never have a chance to get bored.

He thinks of his home as "nest" and it is the safest place for him. If he
feels hurt or depress he will stay at home alone quietly. Once he feels
better, he will come out of his retreat and lives normally again. Being a
looser is not him.

It is so easy to fall in love with this guy because he is gentle and a very
polite guy. His wit and creative mind could win your affection. He will come
out from his nest to protect you even if he is not opening himself up to
other people much. Not many people will win his heart. His security is only
when he has money in his pocket. Once he feels secure then he might think of
having a happy family. Even he likes to make and keep money, he is not
stingy. Spending money is part of his good image, so he will be happy to
spent money to take you out to a very expensive restaurant or buy a jewelry
for you. Certainly when he has money OK.

He is possessive to everything's that he thinks belong to him. Don't try to
talk to another cute guy in front of him, he will get suspicion because he
is not very secure or confident in himself for this kind of competition.

Once you know each other too much, he will start to look for new excitement,
but not to worry for he will always think of you. If he thinks you are the
true love for him, and you try once to disappear. You will be sure he will
come and look for you.

He is a shy guy, but if he likes you. You can get up in the morning and see
that he is in front of your house everyday till you go out with him, a very
persistent guy.

He likes a secure, cheerful and lively woman, confident but at the same time
always act proper and appropriate. He likes a secure woman, but able to
adjust to his rapid changes. A very difficult type to find woman indeed.

In the beginning, you and him will be so sugary sweet together and he will
only think of you. This so "super romantic" will not last forever, so don't
slip this chance. If you are the one who want his interest, then act and
make yourself interesting. Be a supportive person and give him compliment
sometimes, but not too much till he thinks you are not sincere.

Unlike many other Zodiac, if he is mad then you better get out of that room.
He will calm down by himself. Giving him a slight touch on his shoulders or
concerned facial __expression are enough. He loves his mother, so try to be
his mother favorite, but do not act like his mother!

Ps: Am not believing it entirely but of wat have happen to my life nearly 80% of it is true in this article... Beats me.......
NO WONDER I HAVE PROBLEMS GETTING A GAL..... hehehehhehehe

Argghhhh

2005-01-09T11:50:00.000-08:00

before this i have type quite alot and it just hang....

so be it la...
dah malas ah
takde mood......

weddingz, weddingz, weddingz

2004-12-29T22:35:00.001-08:00

ONE WEDDING IS AN ENVY,

BUT 5 WEDDINGS IS A MISERY TO THE MIND....

ARGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH.......

List Of New Year Resolution

2004-12-25T09:08:00.000-08:00

1) Stay Healthy....

2) Learn How To Blade... ( Must Get One First) *Hint Hint Hint*

3) Clean up my Bike and start cycling again....

4) To write my milleage claim everyday without fail (Losing Money on tt.../ Was my last yr resolution)

5) Earn More Money

6) Get A New Better Paying Job....

7) Get A WIFE.... (hahahhaha.... who wants me... *Fussy*)

8) AND THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IN LIFE IS TOO GET MYSELF CLOSER TO ISLAM IN ANYWAY I COULD..... Insya Allah....

Ps: Hope everything goes well next yr.... Well like I've said to Ironica Am still Single and available but with a priority.... But my Options are still open.... :)

A Wedding, A birthday and A Death

2004-12-19T14:45:00.000-08:00

Well here i am again inking my tots.....

Practically everything was like cancell la this last few days but it was replace by other activities.... :)

Friday was suppose to see me at balachandra or is it Balaclava at suntec for Andz Stag nite but due to the grooms unavail it was called off.....

On thurs day recieve a call from Zakiah asking me if i wud be available on sat to help out volunteer for PPIS stuff..... Well My plans for Sat was already cancelled (Suppose to go to Wala2 with Ed to check out the band there but IT WAS CALLED OFF TOO) So i just said YES to her....
Was ask to come on friday for a briefing from the stage manager So there i was on friday to have the breifing la.....

On Sat was like no Diff from other working dayz as i had to wake up early in the morning coz i had to be at the CC by 0730 hrs...
Everything went well la for the event got to snake ard also hehehhe....

Not to miss out the minahz tudung ard... But well my shyness just kicks in when it comes to this matter.... So just like an eagle preying on its lunch but ain't able to do anything coz of it's broken wings.... (my shyness tt is)

Got a call from dad ard 1 plus saying tt my aunt who has been in coma for like 12 days had just passed away( she was suffering from stroke and fits at the same time)...

I had to leave the event eventhou it's ending at 4... Luckily nothing much is left to do on the stage anymore.....

Rush back try to call my mom but no avail coz she is in a seminar which ended at 4...
So just my dad and me went for the funeral.... after the funeral we left the pack of people from the cemetery to hitch a hike from my unle who sent us to the Boon Lay Interchange Where I TOOK a bus back home...... ( Wonder when was the last time I took the freaking Public Bus) usually my journey from Boon Lay to home is abt 10 min or less on bike..... But this one was like an hour, my goodness..... i slept and i woke up and i slept again and when i woke up I still have not reach my stop yet...... haizzzzz... Bus rides.....

then at nite met my uncleand cousin at Porta-Porta in changi north where we had dinner which was under portion, expensive but nice.... after tt we went to Changi village to have SATAY....

hahahhaha... seriously ain't enuff for growing men like us......

Was suppose to go to Rezal's wedding coz I'm working today but did not as he was at his wife side as her function is on sat......

Well tt's practically it la... At Work Now... BUT THE WORST PART IS TT IT'S MY PAY DAY TODAY...... ARGGHHHHHHHH/....... WANNA GO SHOPPING.........

SIGNING OFF NOW...

ps: it's her B'day yesterday and i hope i was the first one to wish her... Wonder when will the next time i see her.....
And Fit if u happen to read this I saw ur nick and it was a nice one....

2004-12-13T20:10:00.000-08:00

WAT A BEAUTIFUL MONDAY....

I wonder......

2004-12-10T22:15:00.000-08:00

wanna blog since tt day( dunno when already...) but lazy ah
hahahhahaha

OK Went to the Trainee Technician interview at SIA...
It went darn well... Was impress with myself too.... hehehhehe

BUT the Blardy problem is tt they pay too low with me still have to sit in class for another 15 months and then with a 3 yrs bond.....

Well the medical check up slip is still with me and not yet done....

respectable, recognise and well known all over but one think is tt they are well known for their retrencment....

Dun think am taking up the offer after I ask someone.....

went to JB tt nite hahaha
jam ok la tak so terrible but on the way back after making the turn at the bridge there this indian malaysia guy with his RXZ threw his cigratte butt which nearly hit me and then blow his trottle twice before speeding up and i just followed behind....
The next thing i heard was tyres screeching and then a loub bang......
hehehhehehe
i saw what happen( really like cartooon already....) ahakz
tt guy for a moment lay motionless then he suddenly sprung up jumping to the divider....
In my heart........ (before i curse him for throwing the BUTT he already had an accident if i were to curse him gerenti he "go and never come back ah"

seriously aftrer seeing fall my balls were at my throat ah...

Makes me think life is really valuable and why must we do stoopid things just to waste it just like tt...

work have been ok la... slack the whole day yesterday.... work the whole day today... tomorrow maybe sleep the whole time la.....
hehehhe

ok la.....

BTW WANNA SAY SORRY TO THE PEOPLE WHOM I'VE INTENTIONALLY OR ACCIDENTALLY HURT LA K.....

PS: Her Birthday is coming........

Well well well

2004-12-06T22:30:00.000-08:00

What can I say.....

The beautifull ones are taken up by the guys of their dream be it they are handsome or not.....

But to think again people fell in love at the first sight usually through looks and figures..... Ain't i'm right?

There's is no denial abt this....
Definitely u won't want to know a gal/guy who isn't appealing in ur eyes.... Am i right? Unless u've know tt person so quite some time....

ok enuff of this tots......

Well yesterday, the day before and the day before tt saw me at zaki' and suhana's solemnisation and wedding functions......

Well everything went smoothly as plan but not up to the timing... Almaklumlah katakan orang melayu...
kalau tak lambat 1/2 jam tak sah....
hehhehe
on friday the solemnisation when well as Nana's dad married his daughter off to Zaki... lotsa pictures taken tt day,....

On sat saw me at zack's place early in the morning as we had to fetch Nana from her place... and guess wat i had to step in to become the bestman as his best man overslept........

hahah wat a time to oversleep....
Well tt's ewan ah....
he took over the duty back at zack place la...
the couple was sabotage by farrah and nora for them to sing a song...
In the end not only a sing but two songs they had to sing.....

Well on Sunday was a little chaotic ah...
most thing was unprepared and most of all i forgot how to tie the blardy samping ah....
muakakakkakaka
the roses are ready al we all went to nana's place....
the event hits to the max when i found out the DJ was my colleague ah... power....

So we present the 24 stalks of roses to nana when zack sang her Belaian Jiwa from JJ which i wanted from Innuendo....
well too bad at least they have the song... ahaks
Nana's was teared by suprise when each of us came up with a stalk of rose for her.....

tt's practically it la...

Will post the pics once i've edited it la...

Ps: now the wedding is over time to resume my overseas job hunting ah.....
feels happy for the couple but wonder when wil my turn be.....
And not to forget there is still 3 more weddings to go this month ah....

Shack and Tired...

2004-11-30T01:30:00.000-08:00

Fuhyoooooo....

The weekend was great......

Jln raya on sat was good man only the bus air con sn't working properly......
Had to stall time as they had to prepare Zack's Stag party which is playing soccer......
And I'm the one who has to be the bad guy and lie to him tt i have to work and ased him to wait for me to go together.....
On top of tt i was like kena trash for coming late ( which was all a stage up la just not to make him curious.....)

Everything went well from the soccer kits tt we have to stash to bringing Zack's kit there....
all well planned....

His suprise came when we were in the bus going to the pitched which he doesn't know(hahahha)
Kena tied up and blind folded......
then we make him wear a kinky cut out t-shirt and a muay thai shorts which was modified.....
hahahhaha

he was suprised when he saw there are 2 teams oh guys waiting to play soccer with him which are made up of 1st generation Cliff till the last one (currently which is me).... hahahhaha

Well all was ok la....
Btw every house we went there was food..... only 5 houses.....

Sun.....

Was late again..... Y... cause have to prepare for Rino's birthday party....

join the guys after tt all houses got no FOOD.....
Practically all just kuih only till my house which was at 1830 hrs.....
my mom had prepare Kari, 8 loafs of delifrance bread, Ice Jelly cocktail and water mellon along with coke and pandan tea.....
All snap up in a jiffy.......
and i had to buy 2 extra loaf of gardinia bread to accomadate to them....
hehhehehhe

Worst part is tt i didn't even get to eat la.....

haizzzz
all of them full except me.....

then when we reach to the last house then i got to eat the cake...
hehehhehe

sad kan....

hahhaa ok la much of typing and dunno wat to type already....
u guys can see the pics under my link la....

Ps: feel happy for my new found family.... But for 2 days only.... Loneliness gonna kick in soon i guesss.......

YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.........

2004-11-26T06:30:00.000-08:00

Finally my big break from work is here.......

Will be on Super Duper Long weekend... Starting today on half days leave will be back to work only on Tues.....

Feels like my raya just started ah...

Well going visiting with the guys this weekend....

Indented a Bus to cater to our needs.....

maklums ah semua dah bergaya ngan baju kurung and macam2 ah....

At werk now actually...

Sipots tols la.... semlm mlm takde call then they start coming in after 2 am

Blardy *toot* Nie aku lum tido nie.......

smell the outside air really reminds me of the pass when i was still in primary school when i went for camping at punggol.....

Well those were the days ah.....
Miss them... Miss collection too....

hahahhahaha

Well the week have been with lotsa downs.....

Even My *AnjingNeer* also get a piece of me.....

dunno why

Lotsa ppl say tt the loneliness is kicking in......

Maybe ah.....

But afterall we will be alone per when we pass on.... ALONE IN THE 'HOLE'!

OK LA ENUFF OF THIS CRAP THOU....

Ps: She had a new job... wonder how it is..... Wish her all the best.....

hahah Finally

2004-11-22T02:55:00.000-08:00

Finally i penned down my tots....
after day by day of wanting to do so but due to my tight schedule and laziness i didn't manage to do so...

well here i am.....

Raya was ok la... the mintak maaf part was a bit dramatic with tears with flow uncontrollablely and speehless mind u..... (maybe banyak dosa la aku nie... heh)

duit zakat to the budak2 was fulfilled but was sad thou when 1 one my niece is admitted to hospital due to high fever tt morning and was not able to see her.... but not to worry her share is safe with her mom.....

The visiting was fine but only with one upsetting issue ah......
Which is "Bila kau nak kahwin?" and "Nyai doakan kau cepat2 dapat jodoh k"
and i reflect to myself.... (haiz tak laku ker aku nie? Sampai nak kena berdoa untuk dapat jodoh....)

nvr mind tt ah.... Forgive, Forget and go make new mistake... after Syawal is a month wat still can ask for forgiveness and kalau lupa and ur umur panjang there is still next yr.....
But i think must mintak maaf on the spot ah... cause i feel tt not only raya tt u ask for forgiveness but the time when u realise tt u've done something wrong tt is when u ask for frogiveness immediately...

for the rest of the week is work work work ah....

on tues met Min for the first time ah with the rest of the guys....
our intro was superb when min was like welcoming me to the table by hugging me like we are long time frens tt have not met for a decade...
hahhahaha
tt night farah was send to hospital for fever which eventually they suspect Denggue....
so Rudy, zack and me went to the hospital la....

hahhaa
skali viral fever ah...

On sat i caught the Incredibles...
was fun ah
good show, funny ah and nice action movie....

In the day time i went to Saloma's place for her open house...
expected to see the rest of the fellow army mates tapi seekor pun takde
hahhahaha

ok la.....
it's like the wee hour now wanna sleep ah

PS: feel rejected, tak laku, tak hensem, tak akan kahwin.... (why must they bring up the topic during the festive seasons?) BIG TIME DUH!!!!!

camne nie? camne nie?

2004-11-12T05:55:00.000-08:00

LAGI 2 HARI DAH NAK RAYA.....

CAMNE NIE? CAMNE NIE?

CAMNE AKU NAK MINTAK MAAF TAHUN NIE?

SELALU SAMA PROBLEM TAHUN- TAHUN.....
ARGGGHHHHHH

SEE HOW IT GOES.......

PS: I REALLY MISS SOMEONE HOW DO I EXPRESS IT (GOT NOTHING TO DO WITH THE CONTENTS ABOVE....)

Shit Happens When u least expected it..... Damn

2004-11-08T00:15:00.000-08:00

Well Week has been sucky as work is piling up.....

Cannot tahan already ah.....

Well went to Geylang semalam.....

HAHHAHAA
on a Sat nitezzz.....
Kecok giler ah....

Wait for the guy can seriously make me PUKE.....
Sini Sana orang....
Tengok poster pun tu poster sampai jatuh.....
hahahahahhaha

Was looking for 3 item which is Butang Baju (tend to lose them everytime after Raya...), Sampul duit and baju kurung......

Well got the butang baju and sampul duit at the bazaar.....

Went to Joo Chiat to check out the baju kurung at Zain's Collection.....
Like this Blue one and blardy blardy......
Was the last piece and not my size.....
ARGGGHHHHHHHH...
The uncle can tell me some more that most of the baju was already start to be bought by ppl even one month b4 fasting month...
merepek kan dah tau baju dia laku bukan nak pi buat lagik....

Kesian saks aku.....
tu takpe dia kata ada baju sama patern but got my size cuma it was in green but the green is really irky ah....

:(

then off to get burger ramly which fukky say kalau tak dapat nanti kempunan
hahahhaha

then when back home pack my things to go to my sis's place which is already at 12 plus....
make the kuih for raya which is chocolate nuts...
only sleep for 2 hours and now i'm so groggy.....

nites to you....

PS: I like that baju Kurung.....

seeking solace???????

2004-11-04T05:14:00.000-08:00

Well it's been awhile....

Syawal Coming but Dun feel any excitement abt it....

Well preparation for it is like there isn't any...

Have to work day and nite from now till the eve of raya it's self...

DUH......

Wud be my second yr spending my Raya "Single"................ Well I ASK FOR IT....

OK Enuff of this winings....

Iftar on sat was great ah...
even with 6 ppl it was fun....
Had our breakfast at Swensens Crown Prince but didn't get a table b4 breaking fast so had to settle with mango tea while queing up... then off to Alfalah mosque with Farah for Mahgrib Prayers while Nana and Zack queued up for the table.....
While we were taking our shoes off infront of the mosque i saw this tudung gal....
Well I had this thing for tudung gal and definitely i had to look..... hehehhe
She was sweet of coz especially i like the way she dourns her tudungtt even make it perfect with the structure of her face....
And guess wat DAMN i was caught inaction by Farah...... HAHAHAHHAHA (BTW she's my Cousin's GF la)
After prayers went back to swensens to have our food and boy did Farah tell even at the table abt wat happen.....
Well they know the typical me and tudung gals... So wats new.......
KUIKUI KUI
Caught a show at prince was Doll MAster...... POWER damn scary ah....
reached home at 2 plus....

SUNDAY

The Day started by going to JB to refuel and then to Ju's place to collect the drill back.....
Off to my sis's place To mount he LCD tv tt she just bought.....
after tt when home and was online with Fukky,Rino and Junaidi.....
Discussing abt tt nites Iftar and I was commenting abt the food tt we going to eat and was asking abt if i can bring in other food in...
Skali we decided to change the venue to Muthu's Curry ah.... All in the matter within 2 hrs before the Iftar...
A job well Done by us as we were able to do so without a glitch ah...
Turns out well with an attendance of 24-26 ppl (lost count).....
Walk2 tru seranggoon then at last we had our tea session at tekka market where rino b rought the entire Cliff album collection tt he had and we were laughing away on seeing the geeks face of the guys and gals during the old days......
HAHHHAHA
I was not in any of the pics la actually....

OK la This week have really been suckky as alot of back logs and new logs coming in......
veri tired... beri sleepy and worst still after changing the money for zakat my poket Dah like beri empty.... Wish i was still a kid where i can collect..... hahahahhahahaha

Enuff of this early morning nonsense ah......
Wanna sleep somemore....

PS: It's my second yr alone but still feel there is really a missing side of me.......

It's been a yr..........

2004-10-26T23:15:00.000-07:00

It's been a yr since my broke up.......
I haven't seen her since then....
wonder how she look like now....
how is she doing?

As for me....
frankly i do have a couple of "flings" but I just can't bring myself to forget her.....

Here publicly I wud like to seek forgiveness to from the people whose heart i've broken and hurt.....

In this month I did recall the gd times i had with her and the bad ones........

Well being alone for a year has it's up and downs....

firstly i'm free to do what i want like going out and not have to report to somebody and so on....
Easy to say tt I HAVE MY FREEDOM back....

But on the other hand.... the loneliness in me is crawling out of my body..... I dunno how much i can stand it anymore....

It's not that i want rush into things but i really do hope miracle happens.....

hahaha...
seriously i dunno why....

Well enuff of the emo stuff....

Getting sick of work.... (to the max...)

Had my appraisal yesterday well did well.... (one of the highest points in bedok)
Well with the same remarks i had last yr......
hehhehehe.....

Seriously I feel tt i want to go back to culinary line.....
Miss those dayz tt i had in Denny's.....
The kitchen and the dining floor.....
The best part is the crew tt u werk with.....

The skills tt they impart to me from frying a perfect over easy egg and to a medium-well sirlion steak......

But the thing is tt I'm still haveing doubt of switching lines.....

well i will think it over abt this matter......

Well Ramadan is here....
and the tots of having to ask forgivness from my parents comes into mind.....
it's not tt i do not want to ask for forgivness but how to ask for forgiveness is another thing....
hehehe

it has been like tt all this while and when it comes to the day itself, tears will just flow freely and spontaniously asking forgiveness will be done instantly......

Been buka ing at home or at work and have not been buka ing with my frens at all......

ok la....
here it will stop now for now la.....

PS: How do I be a better muslim? Who will be my valentine?

Fwehhhh.....

2004-10-19T08:23:00.000-07:00

Just got back from SGH.....

My cousin just got out from the OT when me and mom reach there... she had a operation to remove a growth....

Was said to be a day surgery but due to her background of having a cancer patient in the family she was advise to stay....

Well she was in great pain just now as her anesthetic is already used up or easy to say GONE ah....

hehhee

her bf was there look rather old thou.....

I can sense his uneasiness when i'm ard... hehehehe
gerenti mesti dia tanya my cousin how am i related to her when we left....

werk was tiring ah...

got another job offer ah as i dunno wat but something got to do with technical and real estate management thingy....
the best part is i got the offer from someone in my current company ah....
POWER.....

kua kua kua

it seems that they know i'm not happy there as i work like hell and only paid peanuts.....

But watever it is, I shud be thankfull as i have a perm job now...

see how la....

yesterday i dreamt tt i was back in Denny's Restaurant with all those guys again.... Ah kam, Shang He, Chang De, Stanly, Sharon jie....

Well I really miss my days there.....

Those long nites, the fights with customers, the fun we had....
and most of all my love for cooking develop there.......

Too bad the restaurant is no longer there... wud like to go back if it's still there...
but the memories will be there for me for long....

haizzzz

k lah much of the yapping now.....

PS: Work really makes u forget the thing tt bothers u for a while......

Thanks for the concerns.....

2004-10-19T05:20:00.000-07:00

Well Even thou i know there aren't many readers to my blog, but the concerns shown by U people who read it does really touch me.....

Here's a new look (My Fav. Colour) to the page and i hope all of u like it.....

Anyway Am not down with any terminal dieases or anything.....

But the only terminal Dieases tt I have is only moi mentality la.... HAHAHHAHA...

Ain't suicidal or going bonkers or wat so ever......

I was just a tot that pass thru my mind tt's all....

Like for Instance... Will Not live to the next raya>>>> Well it Will come to everyone of us When we pass away tt is before "Kiamat".....

The last entry was like wanna dig a hole and cover myself up>>>> Wanna have a feel when we pass on tt will be our home Till the day where we are awaken back....

The tot of after death lingers ard me after I've visited the cemetery the other time to do some cleaning and prayers before ramadan....

To see all the cemeteries there really bring me on my knees (well not there and then but in my mind) as one day my body will be resting there too unless if i was to pass in a different way tt is (eg lose in sea or something)

The sense of repent is there but to fulfill it is another.....

Well am not here preach or anything just wanna clear the tots out there who are concern abt the way i've been penning my tots.....

Thanks for the Concern and Care... ( I even got a smack on the forhead coming tru SMS... hahahaha)

PS: Am a guy who thinks different as in any other possible way tt i can think of.... In simple term is tt I like to think out of the box....... ;)

2004-10-17T20:03:00.000-07:00

feeling like digging a big damn hole, jump into it and cover it up with soil again....

life as it is

2004-10-17T17:50:00.000-07:00

living a day at a time.....

Ramadan is here....

well nothing much happen here now....

taking things slow.....

Love life? hadn't had one since a yr ago....

Working life? Full of Shit and crap have to say..... Wanna leave the company but where am i suppose to work or wat can i do.... ( but wanna try sumthing neew...)

life is really full of roller coaster rides.....

well wanna go for HOLIDAY.....
but where....

have not even claim my $300 holiday claim yet ah

PS: Dunno wat i feel now... So lose.... so wrong.....

Confused And Depressed

2004-10-13T20:25:00.000-07:00

Well Live been quite sucky these dayz.....
Well didn't go to Mega Perdana when I've been looking forward to it....
I've my reasons for tt.....

Have Feelings for someone but dun have the courage to tell tt someone....
Afraid tt i just I just loose the frenship tt we are now...
Dun wanna jeaprodise it....

Work is really A such pain In the ARSE!!!!!!!!

Well Life is practically it...

And btw have this feeling tt i won't get to live to this raya....

haizzzzzzzz

Ps: It's so hard to tell someone who you love that you like her........

well here i am...

2004-09-26T18:10:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was chaos.... with lots of errand to do and a show to go........
services my bike and the blardy tuning was haywire..... not even one of the 4 caburator sincronises with each other....

Capoiera performance was fantastic...... still hearing the beats of the drum the the rythemic clapping of our hands as we watch they spin, flip and martial arts performance..... the way they use a real sord to fight was a good eye opener.... The culture of theirs are so deep which make me wanna be one of them...(but look at my stomach)hahhahaha *boncit* kui kui kui

THROPIES FOR SECOND PLACE AND A MAN DOWN WITH A BROKEN LEG
today was a super long day
had to wake up like ever working day......
haizzzz....
rush to yishun indoor stadium reach there on time at 0830 hrs only to find my team mates not there yet..... WTF we suppose to be on the first game which is at 0900hrs......
Call and call one of them is in kelantan (well Done) two brother MIA..... Blardy Hell......
but luckily got enuff players at nine with no subs......

hahahha
nafas cam nafas ikan seh...
no warm up then started to place... lost the first match, draw the second and a finale defeat by other team......

But the other team in my company made thru to the finals and lost...hehehhehe

during the prize presentation ABG Leman called to say tt he is in hospital with a broken leg... He had earlier drop out as a rough tackle send him limping off the court......

Well I think I'm gonna visit him tomorrow if time permits....

tt's abt it might be going to jb to top up minyak la....
tank ku dah kering so is my Kocek...... :)

This is my life....

2004-09-21T19:50:00.000-07:00

Well here's a new outlook from me.....
hope u guys like it... wish i was like the one in the pic.....